Am I A Workaholic?

workaholicFrom Wikipedia, “A workaholic is a person who is addicted to work. The term generally implies that the person enjoys their work; it can also imply that they simply feel compelled to do it.”

Okay… Personally, I don’t like factual definitions, thus let’s continue in my own way:

I’ve never really thought about it in the past, but I might be a workaholic. How?

The thing is I don’t only enjoy working (here, I don’t consider work as the thing you do to earn a living since I’m still a teen, but I’m talking about everything that demands physical or mental effort) or feel compelled to work (that would be school work) but I also search for work. What I mean is that I like to keep myself busy. I’d hate to remain idle one moment. That’s why I’ve got so many hobbies.

Except from school work and tuitions, I:

Whew.

And even though I’m doing my A-levels this year, I keep myself even busier, doing the things I love and adding more to the list (like art courses and jewellery making)… As if I want to tire myself… although I don’t, it’s just that… I don’t know…

Guess I’m a workaholic?

The problem is there comes a time when I lack sleep or forget to have breakfast…

The great thing is that I always seem to find time for everything. I’m not sure how I do it, but it’s amazing how I can manage my time that well…

workaholic

But why? Why so addicted to work?

What is wrong with me?

I’ve been thinking about this for the past week, and I might have found an explanation:

When I don’t have work to do, I just feel empty. I don’t know how to describe this feeling well, but it’s as if there’s something that’s missing inside of me and I have to fill it in with stuff. It’s like I’d prefer to concentrate on my work to end up concentrating on that nothingness – since I’m an avid thinker, I always think and the fact of thinking nothing would make me crazy.

Since the holidays, I’ve been adding more to the list as I said, because I believe that the gap expanded. That space of emptiness grew…

It’s also a feeling of… incompleteness.

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As if I’m searching for something that will completely satisfy me, going from hobby to hobby, trying everything.

As if I’m simply searching for something… Something particular but I don’t know what it is, yet.

Sounds crazy, right?

Or maybe I’m just trying to fill my day with stuff to do so as to bury something. Bury memories I don’t want to come back to. Thus I get busy working and concentrating only on working so as not to think of that unpleasant memory…

Workaholics are not sick. In fact, when you look behind the may-be motives of a workaholic… it’s amazing how, after all, they are as human as everyone is. Indeed, we should always search for the reasons before judging anyone…

What do you think? Are YOU a workaholic?

An Evil Nymph.

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36 thoughts on “Am I A Workaholic?

  1. Unconfirmed Bachelorette says:

    People do lots of different things to squelch unpleasant memories or feelings; e.g., drinking, drugs, food, and work. It might be interesting for you to write or blog about those memories and feelings. Then you’d still be working when you have a look at them 😉 (I feel I should be forthright: I am guilty of having been a memory/feelings squelcher at times.)

    • evilnymphstuff says:

      I’m lucky not to have fallen in those drugs traps and decided to write and doing other arts instead. Yes, I should, in my secret diary 😉 Oh well everyone is guilty of that I believe… at some point at least.

  2. jimgramze says:

    You speak of trying different things as if you are desperately looking for something. I don’t want to do anything to discourage your enthusiasm but it almost seems like you are running away from yourself, that if you stop there’ll just be you and that would not be good.

    Here’s something new to try: stop doing things and instead relax, sit back, and meditate. Think about yourself and all the things you like about yourself and revel in that. I have done some traveling and what I’ve found that wherever I go I am there waiting for me. I can’t escape myself so one day I decided to make peace with myself.

    I do like to be busy with writing and piano and composing music and saying weird things to people just to see how they will react. But I also sometimes like just sitting and watching TV, sometimes just being alone with myself is good.

    I wish I had the time to start reading through your blog but I am already doing that with someone else so I will only go forward with you. Maybe what this something you are so desperately searching for will come to light. Regardless, I like you just fine.

    • evilnymphstuff says:

      Maybe you’re right. Loneliness is a healer as well indeed! I like to be on my own at times… and let my thoughts wander. But anyway, fortunately I’m doing what I love and stuff that are productive (I’ve not fallen for drugs or whatever), so I guess it’s all right 🙂
      I appreciate that you shared your personal thoughts on this matter. Thanks for visiting!

  3. renxkyoko says:

    I seem to be everywhere doing stuff all the time, and may even look like a classic workaholic…. but I’m not, really, because I enjoy doing nothing, too… just watching TV, or sleeping. Work is a necessity. I don’t seek it.

  4. David Stewart says:

    I don’t think a workaholic is necessarily someone who works hard and loves their work. I am constantly busy and don’t feel like one, at least. I guess each person can decide for themselves though.

  5. ledrakenoir says:

    Very well written, you are a workaholic, but in the good way don’t worry as long as you do things you really like… 🙂

    I’m a lot older and a workaholic too, but I am self-employed and independent also economic – so it’s the desire and the urge which is fuel in the “business” – no matter what I’m doing – and only do tasks I feel for – in fact I say no thanks to many offers of tasks – but still working very much – don’t think about it just do it because I love it… 🙂

    – so keep up the good enthusiastic work… 🙂 😉

    • evilnymphstuff says:

      Thank you! I’m glad to read that 🙂
      Yes it’s true that nothing else matters but the fact that we simply love what we do. Thanks for sharing your thoughts!
      Thanks and you too!

  6. bissymi says:

    lol.. i think it is okay to be a workaholic as long as you eat, take your bath, and add value to others. Considering this is will call myself one – i run an I.T firm, theatre house, freelance teaching and cab services (wen i feel like chatting people up) and now i blog! phew!.. now that i am writing it, i feel the pressure but it is fun!

  7. sapphogirl says:

    I am certainly not a workaholic, but I have so many hobbies like you do. I commend you on your balancing skills, I have nothing close! I seem to be so committed to keeping up the variety because I am also looking to fill a void. If I could find one thing that could tick all the boxes and completely satisfy me (as you say), then I think I could calmly give up my frantic over-commitments and be content with how I choose to spend my time. Oh well, I am young, there is time to figure that out 🙂

    • evilnymphstuff says:

      Having many hobbies, it’s fun and very instructive, in fact. Ah when we’re young… always have to choose because we’re still trying to finding ourselves 😛 Thanks for sharing your personal thoughts on the matter and for coming by!

  8. Island Traveler says:

    Looks like I belong to your club too. I like to work but not of the work for a living kind. I like to do stuff and do outdoor activities when I am at home. I have restless feet…ha, ha, ha.

  9. kristc99 says:

    I can relate! There are just so many interesting things to DO! But, if you are escaping from something inside, maybe there will be more happiness in your life if you are also happy when you stop doing things. I found Buddhist teaching and meditation enormously helpful.

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