It’s never too late for a new blog post either!
For those of you who love to participate in the Weekly Photo Challenge as much as I do you may notice how the title relates to the fact that I haven’t been blogging for two weeks but I really want to remedy to that by still giving a shot at one of the challenges I missed which was ‘Selfie’.
You can actually find this photo on my Instagram. Follow me @dkwaye !
The reason why I haven’t been active neither on the blogosphere nor on YouTube in February was because it was a hard month for me, and I believe for everyone who finally got their A-levels results. Good or bad, this statement once revealed to a student can drastically change his/her life and inculcate huge doubts and difficult decision-making in his/her mind.
Time simply stops. Suddenly we are aware that we have to make a decision to move on from high school and become grown ups. We have to choose a career path, or at least a definite starting point. For 18 year old’s, seriously, this is really awful. It’s mentally overwhelming.
So I was fortunate enough to get Teddy out of the dust and place him on my desk as a means of incentive and motivation for me to go on to university life.
For those of you who already know exactly what they want to become and what they want to study and everything, you’re lucky.
Thus, during these last weeks, I’ve been going to university fairs and on university websites, knowing that I couldn’t afford too much and had to decline UK, the country I’ve been dreaming to go to study since I was a child. Strangely I wasn’t too devastated and maybe that was because after everything that happened to me these last years, like the unexpected passion for drawing and painting, I realised that life is so truly unpredictable and that it’s useless to plan too far ahead. Or else, we’ll just all end up broken and disappointed.
Do you remember my previous post on light painting? Yes, I actually used this for the effect behind me on the wall… 🙂
So which one do you prefer? Black & White or not?
I considered myself lucky when I realised afterwards that my results were good enough for me to get partial scholarships from Asian and UK universities. And even luckier when I fell in love with Monash Malaysia University at a university fair (since studying in Malaysia is cheaper than in the UK I finally ended up in a win-win situation with my parents…).
Yep, that’s where I’m supposedly going by mid-July. I’m going to enroll in a Bachelor of Arts in both Psychology and Writing, though I’m not sure which one I’ll study as a major and minor yet! This is just so exciting! However to keep my partial scholarship going I have to work really hard, thus this was one of the reasons I was kind of reluctant of starting blogging and vlogging again, and preferred to continue working on my novel-in-progress, together with my 50 books Goodreads Reading Challenge 2014.
Unfortunately there is never a happy ending and I say that because although I finally get to relax about searching for universities and get to study two of my favourite subjects, I still find it heartbreaking to leave the other creative arts behind. I often think back on my previous plan (devised well back in 2013) to take a gap year to make a proper art portfolio for universities and take a chance at Visual Arts or even Graphic Design. This tempts me even more now that I’m more and more involved in photography.
But I still have my 18 years’ thirst for adventure and travel and going and living abroad is becoming more and more tempting every day, especially that maybe of my school mates have already took off to other lands. Besides, art school is more expensive.
And that’s exactly why I’ve decided to go back to blogging and vlogging as much as possible before I head off to Monash in a few months’ time. And make other art projects and stuff.
However there’s that famous question that remains: what do I want to become when I grow up?
Well I still have no idea.
And it doesn’t matter. 🙂
I know that I won’t necessarily live with one single career, but various ones. I may become a writer, a photographer, a graphic designer, a counsellor, a psychologist, a teacher… all at once. Who knows?
Since we cannot predict nor control the future I’d say, let’s live the present moments. After all there’s a famous quote that says how happiness is a way of living, not a destination.
An Evil Nymph.