Life, I’m Scared.

My first ‘serious’ vlog:

I hope it doesn’t make you cry, although if you did cry it means I did a great job 🙂

Anyway, this is basically some reflections on my life situation, where I’ve recently realised that I wanted to pursue art as a career while writing will remain my favourite hobby. And it’s also about my struggle to be accepted as an art student, since many do not agree with my decision, many don’t believe in me, many think that I’ll just end up in the streets instead of having a stable job.

But I don’t believe that. I believe in me. I know I can do this.

I know it’s so sudden and since I didn’t do Art & Design at school I have to do it privately and sit for its A-level next year, thus I’ll still be studying next year instead of going to university.

It’s a risk, I know, but I’m ready to take it. It’s all about follow my dreams and listening to my heart because only my heart knows what makes me happy.

And art does.

That’s the advice I want to give you: it’s okay to be scared, but you should go forward along your heart’s desires anyway.

An Evil Nymph.

I Started Vlogging!

That doesn’t mean that I’m quitting blogging. In fact, I might start to publish posts more frequently, but slowly at first, maybe one or two posts per week, including guest posts. If I don’t, it means I’m revising for exams!

Meanwhile, from time to time, I’ll also do this:

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My First Step Towards Self-Confidence

I thought I had self-confidence. I was an intelligent and well-loved girl. I was a dreamer. I lived in my own little world. I had friends, a family… what could possibly be wrong?

But then, when I had to sit for oral english examinations, I realise that in fact, I had a low self-esteem. I couldn’t firstly talk properly, I just ended up stammering and running out of words. Before I was really under stress. After I was drinking my whole bottle of water in one go – and of course I had to rush to the toilet.

I have never felt such panic in my whole short life.

Since that day, I knew that I was not ready at all for Life. I was still young so I fortunately can correct myself in time.

I lacked self-confidence.

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