Something you should know about me: I can get easily emotionally attached to well-written books and good-plotted movies. I’m also a bit stoical because I almost never cry or whatever… even if sometimes I want to as sometimes it can be good for me.
If you’ve been following me on Twitter you’ve seen that my latest tweets talk about the fact that I’ve finished to watch the whole Terminator: The Sarah Connor Chronicles (TSCC) series yesterday.
I yet have to watch the movies of The Terminator in 1984 onwards 😀 (so excited for that!)
Back to TSCC: This is a series that really touched me and that I fully watched. I usually like very few tv series because the more I grow up the more I expect specific things from movies or books or series… if you get what I mean.
I know I’m currently watching Dr. House and I’m a big fan of Merlin BBC series; the two series I love at the moment. For the latter it’s thanks to that that my love for Arthurian legend grew, until I could only love Morgan 🙂
But TSCC has had a different effect on me.
If you’ve read my post on the books that left a scar in me, my favourite ones of all time (read it HERE) you know that there are especially two books that I really enjoyed: ‘The Mists of Avalon’ and ‘ThePillars of the Earth’, both being more than a thousand pages. These huge books let me enter their world slowly, at my pace… and just when I feel I’m very much into it… the book just ends!
The brain is a complex machine inside of us. It can make you believe there are other worlds than this one by first making you dream… It makes you believe that your soul is connected to someone else, then when the person just leaves you you feel like in a life-in-death situation. You feel part of you is dying… You feel empty.
The brain is tricky and even more advanced than these T-1001 I saw in TSCC 😛
“But it is flawed” (quote from TSCC)
My brain believes in other worlds that we can get into through a portal: a story, dreams, images… simple things of everyday life. That’s where you can extend your imagination.
And when the portal closes, when the last page is turned, when the screen goes black and the credits start to scroll… I feel this emptiness. Like something is dying in me. I had a dream once (and you can read it HERE) which meaning was that something is dying in me – and I don’t know what yet.
I always curse myself when I realise that I’ve been attached to a series or a book just like any human being would be attached to a life partner. That’s so weird.
Therefore when the last episode of TSCC ended, I felt a deep hole inside… like grief I guess? I’m still a little bit under the shock but don’t worry it usually gets better after some days. (omg it’s really like I’m grieving!)
Do you think this is weird? Or any of you ever had experienced this? Opinions?
An Evil Nymph.